I can promise you I’ve never gasped so loud in my life.
I saw it… two lines.
I’ve always watched so many videos of mamas getting their positive test followed by tears welling up in their eyes. I can most definitely relate to that! Shaking, crying, laughing, I was doing all of it…
So, what now?
I probably had looked at the test at least 100 times throughout the day. Finding out at the beginning of my shift at work and, I couldn’t stop thinking about how I wanted to tell Alex! I could NOT believe it.
But now begins our pregnancy journey, and what better way to start it than by making the most awkward phone call of my life.
“Hi! I, um… am pregnant.”
“At least the test says I am… I’m not really sure what happens now… yeah.” Honestly, if there was a recording of me making that phone call to my doctor’s office, it would’ve sounded just like that. “Congratulations!!” they said, as they scheduled me for my first appointment.
I remember the days after I told Alex. I ended up buying more pregnancy tests just to be really sure I was really pregnant. Pretty sure I took around 5 or 6, because Alex asked me to stop spending money on tests when they all were already coming back positive. I just couldn’t wrap my mind around it… there was a poppy-seed-sized baby, growing in me. I felt like I wanted to wrap myself in bubble wrap… a life so fragile relying on me to keep it safe from harm…
It felt like a dream.
Every ache and pain sent me into so much worry. “Is the baby ok? Am I ok? What’s going on?” I constantly thought. Every day I found myself being so grateful. “My baby is stronger today… my baby is bigger today…” I kept telling myself. As much as I was told to stay off of Google, I couldn’t help but look up how I was feeling constantly. As you can imagine, that didn’t make me feel any better. It’s so hard to wait and wonder. All you can do is count down the days until your first ultrasound.
It finally came time for us to see our baby.
I remember getting to the appointment 20 minutes early. We were so excited! I was anxiously sitting in the waiting room, hearing the echo of me tapping my feet and wiping my sweaty hands on my pants. I got called back to the room and she told me how everything was gonna go.
“I see the baby, and they’ve got a strong heart beat”
I instantly began to cry.
It all started… with two lines.
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- Grief of What Was
- The Day Time Stopped
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